A Love Story and Hope.

Usually when two young people meet; they go on a few dates, may fall in love, may as well start a family. However, sometimes that doesn’t happen.

Last week I was at my aunt’s as we were making dinner, we were talking about people who have had miscarriages, expensive failed IVF transfers, and how God has seen some of them through those tough storms.

Having a 1% chance to conceive naturally and through a miracle. Actually getting pregnant only to lose the baby 6 weeks later. Experiencing failed IVF transfers. If that isn’t enough, facing the long road of international adoption but those doors keep closing as well.

To say such families get disappointed and discouraged is an understatement.

They may feel let down by God. They know having a family is a desire of their hearts and something He put there, so why face so much opposition?

Hope is a dangerous thing, hope can drive a man insane – Morgan Freeman in Shawshank Redemption

You see, God never promises a perfect life. He does promise that he will be there every step of the way.

Hebrews 13:5

Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you”

He loves them, He knows their story and His plans for them are good.

It might not seem that way. It might feel like He is hiding or He’s silent, but He is in the midst of the storm with you.

He has not left your side. He’s cheering you on. He’s holding your hand. He’s walking up and down those hospital floors WITH YOU. He’s crying WITH YOU over the heartbreak you’re facing. Your story will be a beautiful one someday. Reminding yourself that He’s with you in it now can be what gets you through today.

He will change the song on your lips to one of thanksgiving, at his time.

Dec 2018

I have heard testimonies of God’s doing in the far and recent past.

Some sound very obvious, others absurd, some even made up.

This one guy I met asked God to help him iron his clothes, there was no electricity to back up his requests but the iron was hot.

Again, he would get migraines from here to Rongai. He asked God to help him see well and God did exactly that.

Another prayed for a car and she got a really small one, but she’d thank God everyday upon departure and arrival. “thank you God my provider” until God provided an even bigger car.

Another was very unwell. She’d see death at her bedside, the angels dance to her music as she sung to what she thought were her last tunes. Until God changed the music on her lips to one of Thanksgiving, one of healing.

From all that, what I have learnt is that; Your perception of God determines who you are. You have a different view on life from that experience.

You refer to God according to how you know him, and your relationship is strengthened by that.

Truth or Dare?

Learning to tell each other the truth about practically everything.

I say learning because no one has the natural ability or inclination to communicate clearly and deeply with the opposite sex. No one.

When we want to begin a relationship, we are not prepared or even able to be open and honest with the other person. Quite the opposite, in fact.

We hide the truth. We hold back the truth. We distort the truth. We have no idea how to truly connect in conversation and get to know each other. Why? We don’t speak the truth because it is human nature to protect oneself and not be vulnerable. Sharing truth, especially with the person we are closest to, exposes us to potential harm and pain. It feels a lot safer to keep truth hidden.

It is the unspoken things that limit intimacy and eventually kill it. It is what we don’t say that keeps us from the soul-mate closeness that we need and that God wants us to enjoy. It’s time for real talk about real issues.

Grace Alone

I was an orphan lost at the Fall
Running away when I’d hear Your call
But Father, You worked Your will
I had no righteousness of my own
I had no right to draw near Your throne
But Father, You loved me still

And in love before You laid the world’s foundation
You predestined to adopt me as Your own
You have raised me so high up above my station
I’m a child of God by grace and grace alone

You left Your home to seek out the lost
You knew the great and terrible cost
But Jesus, Your face was set
I worked my fingers down to the bone
Nothing I did could ever atone
But Jesus, You paid my debt

By Your blood, I have redemption and salvation
Lord, You died that I might reap what You have sown
And You rose that I might be a new creation
I am born again by grace and grace alone

At your touch my sleeping spirit was awakened
On my darkened heart the light of Christ has shone
Called into a kingdom that cannot be shaken
Heaven’s citizen by grace and grace alone

So I’ll stand in faith by grace and grace alone
I will run the race by grace and grace alone
I will slay my sin by grace and grace alone
I will reach the end by grace and grace alone

Another day of Grace

There’s a difference between housing God in your lips and in your heart from the book of Isaiah,

Isa 29:13 Therefore the LORD said: “Inasmuch as these people draw near to Me with their mouths and honor Me with their lips, but have removed their hearts far from Me, and their fear toward Me is taught by the commandment of men,

the house of faith doesn’t have doubt. It isn’t wishful thinking it is having complete trust, therefore if you have doubt then that isn’t faith
Honestly I know that if you house God in your heart, obedience won’t be such an issue, you won’t see it as living to God’s expectations, and there is no way on earth or in the sky that you can or even try achieve perfection on your own because you aren’t perfect, that is why we need a perfect Savior to help that is why it is ever going to be difficult to get there.
There are people who are going to tell Jesus that they performed miracles in his name, cast out demons but they won’t see heaven.. So the ideas of having ‘walked as Jesus’ are all useless..
Establish a personal intimate relationship with God, tell him all there is to know about you.. Get to know Him as YOUR God, one who you can identify with. Like how guys in the Old Testament knew the God of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob..

Because of the mighty things he’d done for them personally
I believe that it you love something and fall and walk away completely from it did you really love it in the first place?
Time is what we don’t have, it is having a relationship with Jesus that guarantees eternal life
Failure shall always arise more now for Christians than others, because the devil is working round the clock to break hope and waver love to disbelief..

That’s why it’s easy to fall, but the word says that Jesus is our firm foundation, so we can’t fall if we look to him, only to Jesus
Nothing is certain, true, but one thing remains, his love never fails, never gives up, never runs out
Yes. It’s good to be alone, cherish every moment but we were made for fellowship.. Look God the Father, God the son~Jesus, and God the Holy Spirit are one, a community in one God. We learn alot in fellowship than when alone, learn not to be arrogant, testimonies edify us, we are encouraged that were not alone,

give me faith

I need you to soften my heart, and break me apart

I need you to open my eyes, to see that that’s shaping my life

All I am I surrender,

I need you to pierce through the dark and cleanse every part

I may be weak, but your spirit’s strong in me

My flesh may fail but my God never will

Ashamed of myself 

I have fallen, I’ve betrayed your trust 

You warned, you cautioned 

I heard, said you can count on me 

Then.. I hit rock bottom.. 

I tried running, but my bones we’re shattered.. Broken legs.. 

Thought I was strong enough, relied, just this once on myself and not you.. 

Your words we’re obedience, trust, keep alert. 

I mean I’ve made it this far.

Yeah like Barabbas.. I didn’t look at the other man(Jesus)… Saw that the people love me instead 

Eyes clouded with pride, envy, my self 

My heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I 

Find rest oh my soul, in Christ alone not by speech only but by word also


Is the grace still sufficient?